"What do I want to do with my life?"
And in all honesty I have tried three approaches to this question...
- I tried to please everyone else....that made me unhappy and frustrated.
- I tried to aim high....and realized I wasn't tall enough to reach.
- I tried to go for the pound rather than passion....and I found money cant buy me love.
But unfortunately none of these attempts brought me close to what I REALLY wanted to do. But then I've seen 50 year olds unsure of what they wanted to do, on the brink of retirement from flitting from job to job.
Now I could go around getting other peoples opinions and decisions on what they have done till my ears fall off, but it still boils down to MY ideas and decisions. And I have come up with these ideas:
- The best job would be something that doesn't feel like a "job". Something enjoyable rather than a chore, then the other side of me says, there are always parts of a job you hate, whether it be the hours, a certain annoying person, less pay...but If the main subject area was one of interest surely it wouldn't be that unbearable.
- The areas that I have found to be the ones I enjoy (regardless of skill or qualification) are Film production and reviewing, creative writing, care giving, cooking, Childcare.
- Then however comes the main point that weakens the resolve; What would I be able to offer a potential employer in terms of work in these areas. And their ideas could be vast...their way of nit-picking the very best for the position from the dregs of the people trying their best to work their way up. Which fair enough in a business point of view saves time, training and money, but for the poor sod willing to put in the hard work and toil learning on the job ( the best way to learn anything in my opinion through practice and practical hands on learning) rather than just appearing with a piece of paper saying you can do the job when you technically...have the knowledge but not the confidence of experience...
They of course want both.
Buggers.
I found a brilliant link that inspired me about aspiring people who do what they love for a living and have never doubted themeslves as everyday they wake up and love what they do...how brilliant! Have a read, it made me think.!
But, I am still waiting for my eureka moment...along side many others, and I'll continue to pay the bills, and keep myself happy anyway I can, as I hope all of you do.
I had to add this clip of the Vultures for the Jungle Book, as the subject inspired me to write this post..and what better way to explain myself than this way.
