"Did you ever stop to think, then forget to start again?""Winnie The Pooh"
Has that ever happened to you? You know, your quite happily going along with your business with your normal mediocre thoughts then...all of a sudden something............
Its strange, and often happens when it shouldnt. Like for instance, I should be thinking about big things i need to sort, savings for mine and chris's flat, all the paperwork, a new job...the meaning of life. And I should feel ashamed of it, but good peeople of Earth, I AM NOT! I'm glad to be a daydreamer, to wander off along the path of what ifs and furry creatures and....whatnot. We all know that this grey world of ours needs a little colour, and sometimes that can only be made brighter with a little fantasy.
There are so many things I want to have and do with my life, and as young and bushytailed I am, I'm in a rush to get them.
Lack of patience you may say... a want to live I call it.
Sometimes, I have to do the one thing I hate....waiting to see what happens.
I am, for some reason, one of these people who likes to plan. I plan for things that may be, things that have happened and must be changed, things no one can really plan for, but this idea that something unforsaken and ruining may turn up, so, yes, I plan for those too...I think I mainly plan for the beggining and the outcome, Like I've always been taught to do with my essays and my creative work at uni, "If you know where you want to start, and you know where you end up, the journey between will work itself out"...maybe thats true of life, I know all too well with essays its way more complicated!
But I have heard that even the most careful planner cant plan for everything. It never turns out the way you plan. It nearly always turns out better.
But I understand that even Bill Gates didnt wake up one day with Windows in front of him...time effort....patience (its that word again....shivver!), he probaly got to a point where he was thinking, "what the fuck do I do now?!"
But...this one thing...I want...so truely...so deeply...that it almost has to happen, as I wont let it go either way. Remembering to look at the important things can never be wrong though...but looking too much...as I have been a slave to...no matter how much you want something, can kill it.
Over feeding a plant wont make it stronger will it? hmmm?
